I said that I'd include an update after I saw the doctor today. What do I have to show for my visit? A semen analysis kit for my husband, and instructions to call back in a couple of days to see if they got my records out of storage so that they can send them to another doctor. The only possible recommendation she had for me was another course of Lupron, which would put me on hold for at least 3 more months, and make me miserable. Plus - most of the time, you shouldn't be on more than 6 months of Lupron in a lifetime. Did I mention that it SUCKS! no one should have to go through menopause 3 times. SO anyway, back into the holding pattern. If I go directly to an IF specialist, everything starts to cost a lot of money... which I don't feel like we have.
Anyway, I should breathe.
I know that's what Jakobe would be telling me right now, mostly because I just got off the phone with him, and it's the equivalent of what he did tell me. "It will all work out. Or it won't. Either way, we can exhaust our resources trying, and they'll come back later. I love you more today than yesterday, and that isn't going to change. God won't give us more than we can take" I take exception to the last one, mostly because I may not be given more than I can take, but I certainly be given more than I would ever want to, or more than I feel is reasonable. Oh, and the whole not believing in a singular god thing, but hey, we can't have it all.
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Jenni - How long were you trying before your doc gave you the SA order? I think that it should be part of the pre-conception appt!
ReplyDeleteI was scared about the money thing too. It was one of those parasite fears, that we are facing now, but felt so overwhelming at the beginning.
I also think it is crazy how calm and rational our men can be. "keep breathing, its going to be okay. I love you. We can deal with this." Sometimes I wonder if they really believe all of these things that they say, or if they are just saying them to keep us from freaking out.
We were trying for about 7 months before we got the order for the SA. Until then it was just me and my PCP. I agree with you that it should be a very early test, it allows you to know what you’re facing before you spend months peeing on a stick. I don’t think that the guys really believe all those things – but they know that saying them helps us.
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