Pushing Through

This morning sucked.  I managed to write my short post, and to write out a quick post to Facebook, because my extended family know just about everything, and it's easier than having to tell people.  Then Jakobe and I went to a little diner we like and I drank 3 cups of coffee and ate way too much breakfast!  We stopped by to see my mom and sister, who both work in the same place.  My sister had called me all excited and hopeful for me this morning, and she was going to call me back about lunch time...  it was easier to tell her face to face.  They cried for us - and I cried a little bit more.

After that we came home, and I was very glad to have something to do to occupy myself (besides my homework, which I also got done and e-mailed to the Prof. because I don't feel like going to class tonight.) and that was to put together the patio set my mother-in-law bought us me for my graduation present.  It was kind of fun, and definitely good for me to have something to do with my hands.

Besides, you can see my pot of rhubarb behind the chair.  It seems to be dealing well with being dug up and put in a pot, and I've got strawberries on the way!

I've seen that there are a lot of questions about if we can transfer tomorrow - the Dr.'s office has stopped doing day 6 transfers because they have found that they have a higher success rate with vitrifying the embryos on day 6 and putting them back on Day 5 of a different cycle.  Something about that being when the endometrium is best prepared for them.  I know that they've got very very exacting rules, and that some of these are new policies there.  I'm hoping it's because they've learned what works the best in their clinic.  As it is, I know that in many other clinics we would have had a transfer today.  

Right now - I'm at home.  My tummy is a bit upset (probably from the coffee, which I don't usually drink anyway, but had this morning because I could)  I've written this post.  I'll probably eat some ice cream.  I may also try to read some of your blogs.

I am so glad that there's a support group meeting tomorrow.  Maybe I can get the last of my crying done there.

**Note:  I think that tomorrow will be the last day of my giveaway, seeing as that will be the last post in this IVF cycle.**

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Changing plans

Okay - not big changes, but little ones.  Mostly because the doctor's office called today, and they had to cancel the injection class tomorrow - the person who is supposed to teach it is sick.  So, now it's scheduled for next Tuesday, but I'm trying to move it to next Friday, because Jakobe said he would cancel his trip to go blow things up for the day so that he could go with me.  Isn't he sweet?

Other than that, things are pretty much proceeding according to schedule, which means that not much is going on around here, just waiting.  Meds arrive tomorrow - Coincidentally, so does new internet!  Yay!  We're looking forward to a much faster connection.

I went to our local support group meeting tonight, and it was good for me again, but at the same time, it was a little bit hard.  It was good for me in all the ways that it's usually good for me - no one else really gets it, and it's good to talk to people who do. And - I was able to ask some questions and see what other opinions were. Hard because right now I'm feeling hopeful, and trying to be hopeful, and there's not a lot of hope floating around the group right now.  At the same time, it is the place to go when your scared, frustrated, bitter, burnt out, and all of those other things that I think we all experience.  A group of infertile women is the right place to find hope beyond all reason, but it's also tempered with regret and disappointment.

Finally, I have to share something I've been playing with:  Turning a photograph of myself into a line drawing, and then coloring it in. I really think I like it - other than my double chin, which I suppose I could have faked my way out of, as it's a whole lot more pronounced in the line drawing than it was in the photograph, but I have to be honest, this is me, and I'm *not* thin, and I *do* have a bit of a double chin. I had a lot of fun, but at the same time, without the full version of Photoshop, some of the tasks that should have been pretty easy, we're very difficult, and didn't turn out as nice as they could have.  So now I have to decide - Try Elements+, or just wait and fork out for the whole thing?  Right now I can buy it at the student price... and that's probably worth it.
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